8 Fish

I completed watching all seven seasons of 'Buffy the Vampire Slayer' so I moved on to 'How I Met Your Mother' and am currently on Episode 7: Matchmaker. In this episode Ted goes to a dating service which boasts a 100% success rate. Having doubts about joining, the woman in charge calculates that there are only 8 fish in the sea for Ted. How many fish are in the sea for me? Counting all the women, straight guys, stupid fags, and guys in relationships, are there only 8 gay guys whom I would be interested in settling down with?

Weight Loss Updates

Well I have been doing well with my Anime Boston 2010 weight loss goals. Since my last post I have been quite motivated and been doing very well. Cutting back on my food intake, adding in exercise, adding in a healthier selection of food, and *POOF* I am down 9lbs.

Weight Loss Goals

So I am currently overweight, not going to say how much, just that it is over 200lbs. Gross I know. Yet even though I happen to hate this and want to lose the weight I find myself lacking in the motivation to do anything about it. It's not like don't have the time, I sit around and watch television all day, that's it. I have enough time to freaking run a marathon, take up yoga, join a gym, go rock climbing, hike the Appalachian Trail, etc., etc. But I don't. WHY? Well I apparently didn't have a real goal in mind. Sure I have a certain weight that I am striving for, but that was not enough, I needed something more. So I called up Krys, and we talked on the phone for a good long time, and we reached a goal. Our goal is to be able to lose enough weight so we can causplay as Lorne and Illaryia for AnimeBoston 2010. They are two characters from the Angel series. We could theoretically do it now, but it would not look as good as it will once we lose the weight. I have a year, a good solid year to do this. Only have to lose about 3 pounds a week, easy enough. I am going to get myself into a set schedule so I can wake up and go to sleep around the same time everyday. Work on walking a lot more and eating less. Good plan I think. I am also going to be keeping a record for myself so I can keep track of my progress hopefully keeping me more moticated. Good Luck to Me!

Hang Over

Last night I went to my friend Sarah's house for a 'Just Because' party. It started out nice and smooth, we were hanging out, catching up on life and such doing some drinking. Sarah's sister made some excellent Jello shots and I had quite a few of them. Played some Wii games and such. Ended up not playing card games. Then out of nowhere I was shitfaced and passing out. Now there is more to that story, A LOT more, but I can't really divulge it. Well, more like I don't want too. This is good enough to be kept between Sarah, Pat, Katie, Sam, Amanda, Serena and myself.

Happy Birthday

It was Jeff's Birthday today. Lauren set up a surprise party for him at Tokyo Japan Steak House in Nashua. Everyone was there it was awesome. Kevin, David, Krys, Brandon, Ashley, Teague, Brendan, Kate, Ashley, and Magda. When Jeff and Lauren showed up Jeff was putting up a stink in the parking lot to tease Lauren because he SO new what was going on and just wanted to give her grief. The food was delicious. Krys and I split an order of Japanese Egg rolls which came with a weird but delicious mintyish dipping sauce, and an order of Spicy Tuna Maki sushi. Delicious, but not very filling. Sadly the restaurant was a tad too expensive for us and we opted to head to BK afterwards. Overall it was loud, fun and a very merry Penny Dreadful moment. Since it was designed to be steam casual we were all mostly in character, what's new, so I definitely told it better as The Baron. So check out that blog too. http://baronvonlahey.blogspot.com 

Day of Adventuring

Instant Messenger 8:32 am

Paul - are we still hanging out today?

Alicia - Dear Paul

I was sleeping in ... or well trying to and I had just fallen back to sleep

when I hear doodoodoodoodoo

which is my text sound ahah

Paul - Dear Alicia, if you don't want your phone to wake you up you should put it on silent

Alicia -  no

ahah cause then i won't ever answer it

it's okay

i was just happy i would get to sleep for like a minute

but it's totally fine

i'm amazed you're up so ealy

Paul -    hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

6 cups of coffee, a D&D addiction and no sleep

*twitch*

Alicia -  ahahahahaha

i want to go to corner lunch

and have the most delicious breakfast food ever

Paul - mmmm breakfast food

Alicia - we should adventure for breakfast

Paul - I'm game

4 Hours Later

When we finally got to breakfast I met Alicia's friend Marilyn. We all ordered omelets, which were delicious but not the MOST delicious, sorry Alicia, and coffee. The waitress was hilarious and we bothered a few old men because we were loud and obnoxious.

We made a stop at Alicia's high school to drop off some costumes she had borrowed from the drama department.

Headed to the movies and we decided to see Taken. The woman at the desk just waved us in and we didn't have to pay. AWESOME! Taken was useless, so glad we didn't have to pay for it. If you're in the mood for a good laugh and semi-worth it action then go see it, otherwise don't waste your time.

Moving on to Circuit City to check out their going out of business sale. Alicia was on the hunt for a copy of The Professional. Didn't find it. With everything 50-60 percent off, their prices are still outrageous.

Our next stop was Barnes and Noble to visit Matt and get more coffee. Walked around the store for about an hour talking to myself and to the books, my usual bookstore habits. Alicia sat down and read some cook books. I ended up buying My Most Excellent Year by Steve Kluger. It's a teen novel about life, love and friendships. I only got it because it has a gay boy in it and it would be an easy read to keep me distracted while Alicia went to the town band meeting.

I ended up not sitting in on the band practice. I found a cozy spot to sit on a couch and read the whole time. I so got sucked into the book. I have to admit I love teen novels. They're just so cheesy and full of movie moments, just how I want my life to be :-D. Ryan called and filled me in on his plans for his dinner get together with friends. We are going to Applebees on the 6th and then see Watchmen afterwards. Him calling made me go all weak in the knees and wtf I am still falling for the damn kid. ARGH! I blame it on my inner teen.

Alicia drove me home, hopped in bed, watched tv, finally fell asleep around 2. Great Day! 

*Overall Coffee Count*

8 cups regular coffee (cream and sugar)

Iced Caramel Latte    (2 shots espresso)

Soy Vanilla Latte       (5 shots espresso)

Insomnia Alert

I know the last two posts that I have posted were done around this time but tonight is different. I am so wide awake right now it's a little insane. I am watching season 9 of Friends and most likely going to go right into season 10. Not going to lie, I LOVE Friends, A LOT. If that gets old I'm thinking about busting out some classic Donkey Kong for Super Nintendo. 

That's it. Short post today. Keep the love coming, even though I haven't received any yet. *Hint Hint*

Rock Bottom?

Well fuck, pardon my language but that is all I can muster at the moment. I get a call from Krys and she tells me her car isn't being sold. I was crushed. Every one of us put all of our emotional eggs in this one basket hoping that it would work out, and then they got smashed. I feel horrible, but a part of me is happy this happened because I want Krys to come stay with me at my parents house so I can have her all to myself. Sorry darling I know you don't want to hear that right now but it would have come out at some point so why not now. Love YOU! :-D

But I want their plans to work out so much more that I am kicking my own ass for even thinking the other way. God, this whole being positive and good things will happen bullshit is a load of bullshit. I am pissed off. They deserve to have this happen to them. Krys has given up everything she had left because she has to do this, Brandon needs this, and David really wants to go on an adventure with his two best friends.

UNIVERSE, I am calling you out. Make this happen for them, open their door. They deserve this and you know it. I will close two of my doors if it means they can have theirs. Take it. Take the offer and make it happen. Please, it's all I have left to offer. 

Love Life

As of today I have not had any sexual action with another man since October. Now this might not seem long to some of my readers but this is quite a long time to me. I don't like falling into the mumbo jumbo of feeling like I need to be into a relationship to be happy, but sadly I do. Being jobless and stuck at home with nothing to do all day gets a little depressing. My mind begins to wander and make up things which ultimately makes me more depressed. Jeff and Lauren are together. Ashley has Diana. Krys, Brandon, and David are going off to be together in the RV. Teague has his girlfriend and his brother. I am alone. All alone.

Now considering this train of thought is very unhealthy I try to do things that make me not think this way. Watch television. Read books. Play video games. All these things are good. I also try to meet guys. This last action, not so much. I have made a Dlist page which I think does a good job showing off who I am and what I want. I have talked to a few guys there and sent some emails back and forth but nothing ever pans out. I found myself being attracted to a 16 year old, in my defense I thought he was at least 21. He is awesome, Bi and could be a good friend. But I think I scared him off being a complete spaz. 

Now I find myself getting interested in a friend of a friend. He is cute, funny, sees the world from the same demented point of view I do. Still sort of young, but at least legal, and yet I don't know how to proceed. My first reaction is to be up front about it, but then I get nervous and hold back, and then I end up spazzing out. This happens to me all the time. Argh!

I should just go back to my usual routine of getting straight boys drunk and bringing out their experimental side. Is it bad that I have had more sex with drunk straight boys than I have with gay boys? I think not in the short term, but if I don't get over my suckyness at talking to gay boys then I will be single forever.